tiring day

I want nobody nobody but chew !! Awww ... i heard this song four times today and i cant help but dance with the rhythm. life is tough as usual, you dont have much option but accepting that your company is one of the toughest around. it makes me understand the word 'endurance' and ' perseverance better. i dont have much option after my course, most probably im going somewhere more tough. as you know guards is tough, 1st guard is tougher than 3rd and recce is the worst. i guess i cant help but laugh over it, time passes very fast when you are shagged.

i just returned from field camp, and i took my first leadership role. the experience was good, at least i do the assignments given to me moderately well, even though not perfect. i jerk my thumb into the barrel of the gun while i was maintaining it, and when i pull it out it bled non stop. it was so painful i just started screaming, i realised my thumb nail is torn out. Ouch! so i cant help but to show everyone my thumbs up sign everywhere i go. even my sister finds it funny. im glad the toughest programme is over, i cant keep the "ba long long" spirit out. next few programme will be my forte or sort of playground, ippt or soc.

there are many things i never do for a reason. i could refresh questions concerning me "why i dont learn driving", i admit i was tempted to but it never went through. so in recce training, which i would most probably end up in, i would be learning driving free of charge. haha all my recce friends are complaining they spent so much money learning their driving. im not that stupid after all. i stole my friend's library card the other day at mac and borrowed four books today. i'm somehow determined to do well in university. good riddance to me as my cousin is working in a firm cb richard elis marketing condo projects. so she will be my recce trooper and i hope she can pull the strings, so after i turn 21 i would be doing projects selling and be a real estate associate. best i will be schooling and marketing condos at the same time, cool right.

honestly now, im somehow a lost person. a person who literally lost all his enjoyment of life, friends and what he used to do. just a friendly note. i just met my best buddies josh and ezra last week and later i would meet ZE CHAO, haha. i miss paul, diana and the haagen dazs clique, 5a classmates, vicent my bmt companion, jerekelryan, SUSAN LIM and her disciples, AIA friends, some independent parties ruth, gerritina, xinghui and last but not least 75 haha. haha dont really have any worries for any of them, my friends i suppose are mostly smart and zhai so i just hope they think of me when they happen to read this.

Ouch!

Pity me ! argh!!! my sar 21 left a blemish mark on my face above my right eye. So now i'm disfigured with a permanent scar on my face. I think that scar requires stitching but i somehow neglected it, so now a mini trench is dug. How ? How ? im already ugly, i just going to be uglier. worst all along i've look like a gangster, the scar will really disorient others perception of me. im going to suffer from trauma and it is going to indent a long term psychological injury.

Everyone is entering their 2nd phrase of life, of course including those who enlisted days before. It's a pleasant feeling now as im getting back my hair while others are losing theirs'. I need a life ! I'm stuck in a swamp, i can barely move at all. Could something or someone please brighten up my life abit please !

I need to go to the library too. i need to buck up and be intellectual, even if it means of faking it.